hi mom, if you have somehow heard what i've been up to these last 6 years, i hope that i have made you proud. I dont want you to think that i hold anything against you, but what you did hurt, not just me but the family your parents included. but im sure you know that. You're my mom and i love you as unconditionally as you do me. but there is something inherently fucked up about taking off like that. well its not so much the leaving part but the severence of more or less all contact.I know that when you left, you had to, for you. you are not absolved of guilt though. i like to think it was hard for you to do that, maybe it wasnt. now six years later i hope you have managed to make the transition you needed to make . I like to think you did a good job with us. and in the end if you are happy now wherever you are then im happy. the hardest part is that you never stayed in touch. i never thought that i would remeber graduationg from highschool as the day you left. Had i known i would never see you or hear from you again maybe i would have felt differently about it, maybe not...

*there is a lot more of this but i will omit all of it to avoid further redundancy